aw, thank you so much! =D
please reblog this - a lot more people need to hear it.
molesting a child is the worst thing you can do to them short of murder - and even murder victims at least have the benefit of not spending potentially the whole rest of their lives suffering.
i just wrote out a long post and then it got lost and it’s kind of emotionally draining to me to talk about this stuff, so i’ll keep it short. i am a victim of child sexual abuse and i only hope that more cases like this come to light so people understand that child sexual abuse is really much more widespread thing than anyone wants to believe
i think it’s really fucked up that the inevitable reaction to a headline like this is all “lol omg this guy tried to fuck a baby, so sick”. when cases like this come up, what happens is people end pathologizing the actions of the abuser, either by “how could this monster do something this sick” or through making some sort of warped justifications or excuses out of misplaced identification. what this ends up doing is exactly what he wants, because we’re focusing on him and his actions and providing him with the attention he desires. instead of treating the victims with any real respect and empathy - they get treated as if they’re just statistics. it ends up being a freak show where a shocked public tries to speculate about the psychology of the (nearly always male) monster abuser and ignores the suffering of the victims because they just don’t want to think about it. but the victims are real, and the scars stay with them for their whole lives. i mean, this guy isn’t worth my fucking time to think about. he’s pathetic. he can rot in hell. the same goes for my abuser.
when you’re a victim of child sexual abuse, every little thing that happens to you or action you take gets defined in culture by your abuse. nothing you say or do is of your own volition. instead, they get defined by the actions of some powerful figure of authority, usually male. they make the news, they take the actions, and we (as abuse victims) suffer. but fuck that. we need to stop letting the abusers define us.
trying to talk about my abuse openly, people will often act very sympathetic but don’t want to “go there” to talk about it or help deal with processing it because they don’t want to think something like this actually happens, which means that it just sits with me in silence for a long time and i keep believing i must have deserved it at some level. but fuck that. their false illusion of how the world operates doesn’t take precedence over my very real suffering. they need to know that this happens to people every day, and never forget it. and the people who do it are almost always ones who have power, and resources, and fame, and money - not some shadowy, mystery manchildren.
fame is really a weird thing, and one that i think it naturally attracts abusers because the power it provides gives them a platform. we need to remember that these aren’t the actions of one sick man, they are societal and institutional problems - and ones that are way more common and happen way higher up on the food chain of power than anyone wants to think about.
i have a few 6 minute-ish tracks on the Mirrormoon EP OST, which was just released today. check it out!
a track i did from the forthcoming Mirrormoon EP OST
this is a track for my friend Lilith’s game Crypt Worlds: Your Darkest Desires, Come True.
you can pay what you want for the rest of the soundtrack HERE http://ellaguro.bandcamp.com/album/crypt-worlds-your-darkest-desires-come-true-o-s-t && you can download the game HERE http://cicadamarionette.com/Games/CryptWorlds/Main.html
Music by ella guro
Visuals by Kenaim Al Shatti
from SCRAPS ellaguro.bandcamp.com/album/scraps
please watch in HD
teaser video for SCRAPS
music by liz ryerson
pay what you want @ http://ellaguro.bandcamp.com/album/scraps
43 track album
I HAVE A NEW MUSIC ALBUM THING CALLED “SCRAPS”. IT IS MADE OF BITS AND PIECES AND PITS AND BIECES FROM THE PAST. VENTURE INTO THE DARK CORNERS OF MY SOUL HERE: http://ellaguro.bandcamp.com/album/scraps ENJOY~!